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Character Name/Alias: Dean Winchester AKA Ted Nugent
Character age: 38/39???
Canon: Supernatural
History:here
Appearance: here
Personality: From the very first moment we meet Dean, we know that he's a sassy little smartass that has no problem breaking into his brother's apartment or hitting on his girlfriend. It's a classless, dick move, and it's probably something Dean's done before. In What Is And What Should Never Be, Dean is transported to a false world created by a djinn, and in that world Sam tells Dean he slept with his prom date, and Dean replies "Yeah, that does kind of sound like me". He's kind of an asshole at first glance, but as time goes on, it's more 'lovable dick' than 'actual piece of shit'.
Dean's issues are considerable, the stem of the poison rooted deep in the depths of his childhood. His trauma started early, when his mother was killed by the demon Azazel, and his home set ablaze when he was just four years old. At four years old, Dean was carrying his baby brother out of a burning house to save his life. As a direct result of losing his mother, Dean moves from one tragedy to another throughout his life. Due to John's inability to cope with Mary's death, the need for vengeance is utterly all consuming, and it dictates the entire future of his two children. Dean has dealt with the repercussions of this his whole life, and deals with a considerable amount of PTSD related problems as a result.
Instead of a normal, apple-pie childhood (even with an absent mother), Dean is instead treated to a life of hunting, of learning how to kill supernatural creatures, of ugly, toxic masculinity defining his life-views from a very early age. The Winchesters are manly men, they don't need anyone but each other, family is the most important thing there is. Dean was forced to grow up far too fast - most of his early years were spent looking after Sam and raising him far more than his father ever did. He made them 'dinner' (often in the form of spaghetti o's or cereal, but food is food), made sure Sam did his homework, got him to school, taught him about girls. Truthfully, Dean was more of a father to Sam than John ever was.
Dean has spent the vast majority of his life looking out for Sam and protecting him; as such, he has made sure to repress any and all of his own emotions in order to remain a functional parent figure. He doesn’t often talk about his feelings, referring to vulnerability as ‘chick-flick’ moments, and tends to brush off Sam’s concerns about Dean’s trauma as ‘no big deal’. Even when he returns from Hell, Dean lies about his experiences, says that he doesn’t remember anything despite his brother's continued concern.
As someone who grew up with John Winchester for a daddy, Dean doesn’t exactly have healthy coping mechanisms, nor does he have a good relationship with himself. He feels like he can’t express himself emotionally, and, as stated above, he tends to downplay or cover up his traumas, hiding behind humor and using his sarcasm as a shield.
One can also deduce by Dean’s deflection and disdain for said ‘chick-flick’ moments, that his Daddy wasn’t exactly emotionally available either, and likely downplayed his own trauma in front of his boys, likely claiming that it wasn’t manly. Dean got this from somewhere, the only logical explanation is his father.
We know Dean was a troubled youth/teen - he has lied, cheated, and stolen his way through his youth in order to make sure Sam was fed, clothed, and had ‘good’ birthdays and holidays. He does this without complaint, because Sam is and always has been his top priority. Family means everything to Dean - it is the end all, be all, and is the reason Sam had a different childhood experience compared to Dean. Sam was a rebel, Dean the dutiful soldier, “Daddy’s blunt little instrument.” Sam was, oddly, the one John doted on, loved, while Dean was clay to be molded into a miniature John, shaped into the perfect fighter - obedient, a ‘mindless attack dog’. Dean, as a youth and teen, idolized John and did everything he asked. He followed his fathers orders blindly, and became his father’s right-hand man.
Despite the hero worship, however, deep down Dean does harbor some resentment towards John in regards to the way he was raised. We see this evidenced in Dream a Little Dream of Me - Dean’s dream self is taunting him, reminding him of all of his self-loathing, that he has nothing outside of Sam, and that everything about Dean is just his father, from his car to his clothing to his taste in music.
Dean retaliates by shouting My father was an obsessed bastard! All that crap he dumped on me about protecting Sam, that was his crap, he’s the one who couldn’t protect his family, he’s the one who let mom die, who wasn’t there for Sam, I always was, it wasn’t fair!
He’s angry with his father, and while the man went to Hell for his son, it doesn’t excuse the years of what could essentially be considered emotional abuse and neglect that he inflicted on his two sons. He consistently left them alone, telling Dean he was in charge, and to watch out for Sammy. It was too much pressure to put on a young boy, but John was obsessed with finding the demon that killed Mary, so much so that he forgot to be a father. He frequently dumped his kids either on others, or simply left them in skeevy motel rooms with a handful of money and left them to fend for themselves. Dean was the one in charge of buying groceries and making sure Sam was fed, and often got frustrated with all of the responsibilities John put on his shoulders, but always made sure to take care of his brother.
At this point in his life, Sam is the most important person to him, and he will do anything for his brother - he will go to hell for him, protect him, kill for him. The boys are extremely close - it’s been noted, several times in the show, that they know each other better than they know themselves.
Their relationship has been a recurring, underlying theme since Season 1 - these two have immense ‘brotherly love’ when in actuality, it can be viewed, from an outsider's point of view, as a relatively unhealthy, enabling, co-dependent relationship. Zachariah himself says "You know you can't trust them right? You know Sam and Dean Winchester are psychotically, irrationally, erotically codependent on each other, right?" Dean needs Sam. Yes, they are codependent, yes, it’s incredibly unhealthy, yes it is soul crushing to everyone around them, because they repeatedly make choices for the sole purpose of ensuring the other brother lives, regardless of who dies around them. But this is a world where Sam and Dean are literal vessels for archangels, where they inadvertently start the apocalypse because of their dedication to one another (Dean would have never broken the first seal in hell if he hadn’t sold his soul to save Sam and so on and so forth), where they are worse apart than together.
It’s arguable that Dean even wants to be a hunter, frankly. In Yellow Fever, while infected with ghost sickness, Dean essentially has the equivalent of a panic attack, telling his brother they’re crazy for hunting ghosts, that they’re insane for living their lives the way they do. It’s likely intended as comedic effect, but it’s also a stark reminder that Dean does not like the life they lead, nor is he truly passionate about hunting.
“What are we doing?”
“We’re hunting a ghost.”
“A ghost, exactly - who does that?!”
“...Us.”
“And that, Sam, is exactly why our lives suck!”
Dean isn’t wrong. Their lives do suck, and they have sucked for a long time. This is the life that was chosen for them, not the one they would have picked for themselves. We know Dean wants an apple pie life because of the events in Dream a Little Dream of Me (among others), but specifically this one, in particular. He vehemently denies his wants a vast majority of the time, but this is one of the happiest times we ever see Dean. The smallest things bring him great joy - a sandwich his mother makes, seeing his brother with Jessica, mowing a lawn, a pretty girlfriend, a normal job.
"...You want to mow the lawn?" Mary asks in confusion.
"Are you kidding me? I'd love to mow the lawn," Dean answers.
"Knock yourself out. You'd think you never mowed a lawn in your life."
Dean's reaction here makes it pretty clear that he hasn't ever done this mundane, normally boring, task. He's...not very good at it, but he is so incredibly proud of himself when he's finished. He sips his beer and surveys his work, and the pure happiness on his face is clear and present. It’s all circular, though, and as he visits his father’s grave, he knows exactly what his old man (his real old man) would say - ‘Go hunt the djinn. Your happiness over all those people's lives? No contest.’
It’s even more obvious that Dean desperately wants something normal and sweet, since he considers staying, even knowing that he'll die - he'll have everything he wants in his head. Dean has never REALLY cared about himself and his life - staying alive is only worth it because he can protect sam. Even as early as S1 Dean tells Sam he's 'tired' - and he doesn't just mean physically. He means emotionally, psychologically, spiritually. Dean is exhausted, and he is ready to rest.
That said, weirdness and djinn influenced reality aside, Dean is pretty adaptable. Throughout canon, he’s thrown into some pretty crazy situations and timelines and AUs, and while at first he tends to be a little freaked out, he quickly adapts and starts asking questions, trying to figure out where he is and what’s going on. If you think about it, he and Sam are basically detectives - they find a case, use their knowledge of lore and problem solving skills, gank a monster, and move on to the next one.
For all that their lives suck, though, Dean somehow manages to not be a complete wreck. He loves pop culture, and despite calling his brother a nerd, he spends whatever free time he may have consuming media. He loves movies and TV shows, and makes references to many, many fandoms over the years, including (but not limited to!): Game of Thrones, Ghostbusters, X-Files, Star Trek, and Lord of the Rings. He also enjoys reading, though the things Dean reads aren’t what anyone would consider ‘light’ - he mentions Slaughterhouse Five and Cat’s Cradle, and the Odyssey, just to name a few.
Dean’s love of pop culture isn’t just shallow interest, though. He states that he likes to watch movies where he knows the bad guy loses, and that growing up, it was always nice to check out once in a while. In this regard, Dean really isn’t that different from all of us. He uses music and movies and TV to escape, throwing himself into these things because it is peace amidst the chaos of his life. He obsesses over his favorites, gets excited, shows his boyish enthusiasm for movies like Hell Hazers and All Saint’s Day. He does nearly nothing for himself in the way of self care (beyond his clear and ever present alcohol addiction, which is in no way a healthy coping mechanism), but he does lose himself in things like his music, a story, or hell - even a cheeseburger or a piece of pie.
Movies/TV/Books (etc), for someone going through repeated episodes of trauma, are a coping mechanism, and allows the viewer to see themselves in the hero more often than not. We relate to fictional characters, find ourselves wishing we were them in some capacity. We throw ourselves into something that we know isn’t real, but the escapism allows us, for a few brief moments, to pretend that it is. Given Dean’s upbringing and extended stays in numerous motels that likely had a TV, it’s not surprising at all that he found solace in old westerns or B-rated horror films. Dean, for all of his tough guy attitude, is far softer than anyone could ever realize. He was often left alone with a much younger sibling who couldn’t relate to him, so he found solace on the silver screen.
Dean is also incredibly intelligent - his brother is often viewed as the scholar and Dean as simply muscle, but really, Dean is pretty ingenious himself. He made his own EMF out of a beat up walkman, it was Dean’s idea to pack the shotgun shells with rock salt, and he has an impressive amount of knowledge in his skull - not just from his love of pop culture. Dean worked with his father for quite some time before he and Sam partnered up, and he is perfectly capable of doing research and reading a book on his own.
For all of Dean’s obvious mental issues, his PTSD, his trauma, his self-hatred, low self-worth and self-esteem, and his tough-guy attitude, Dean is exceptionally kind, and far more emotional than he lets on. He’s good with kids and can relate to them, especially if they’ve been through something traumatic. Dean’s a pretty vulnerable person, somewhat delicate and surprisingly easy to hurt. He is self sacrificing, willing to die for not only his family, but for the innocent people at risk from monsters and spirits.
He doesn’t value his life very much and continually puts himself at risk and when chided for his recklessness, plays it off as either a joke or becomes somber and just says “I’m tired, man.” Dean is devastatingly loyal to those he loves - friends and family alike - and he tends to care far too much. He wants to save the world, save everyone, but he realizes that’s an impossible task and even so, he carries the guilt of those he couldn’t save with him throughout his life.
Dean likes to pop off that he's a hero (please see After School Special where he's been exposed cheating on his girlfriend because she freaked him out with wanting him to meet her parents, consequently didn't get mad when she caught him, and instead told him that instead of something more under his bad boy attitude, there was nothing there and that he was a sad, lonely little kid, to which he responds, I save lives, I'm a hero!), but really, for the most part,
he's self-sacrificing, selfless, and cares/feels so deeply it's nearly a negative trait.
Dean is devastatingly loyal to those he loves, most especially friends and family. He wants to save the world, save everyone, though he realizes that’s a nearly impossible task. Even so, he still tries and winds up carrying the guilt of those he couldn’t save with him throughout his life.
For all of Dean’s obvious mental issues, his PTSD, his trauma, his self-hatred, low self-worth and self-esteem, and his tough-guy attitude, Dean is exceptionally kind, and far more emotional than he lets on. He’s good with kids and can relate to them, especially if they’ve been through something traumatic. Dean can be a pretty vulnerable person at times, somewhat delicate and surprisingly easy to hurt. Again, he is extremely self sacrificing, willing to die for not only his family, but for the innocent people at risk from monsters and spirits. He isn't without fault, but his heart is almost always in the right place.
He's the kind of 'hero' who once thought he wanted to be recognized for it (or...thought he wanted to be, anyway), but in reality, has been content with working behind the scenes to save peoples lives (and occasionally screwing the damsel in the process, I don't make the rules, Supernatural is what it is, warts and all).
Powers / Abilities:
* Well skilled in the use of a myriad of advanced weaponry
* In depth knowledge of the supernatural and how to kill monsters/creatures/etc
* Skilled in hand to hand combat
* Torture (skill learned in hell)
* military style tactics
* mission leading and execution (again, military/marine style)
* excellent research skill
* crafty - made his own EMF, it was his idea for filling shotgun shells with salt, etc
* interpersonal skills to achieve a goal
* clever as hell, though he doesn't see himself as such
* Can speak/read a bit of highly specific latin - in regards to spells, conjuring, summoning, etc
* Knowledgeable in regards to spells, rituals, the supernatural(hah),
* ability and knowledge to make hex bags and protection charms
* knowledgeable in sigil work; latin, enochian, Anasazi Symbols, demon traps, angel proofing/trapping, blood magic, etc.
Character Name/Alias: Dean Winchester AKA Ted Nugent
Character age: 38/39???
Canon: Supernatural
History:here
Appearance: here
Personality: From the very first moment we meet Dean, we know that he's a sassy little smartass that has no problem breaking into his brother's apartment or hitting on his girlfriend. It's a classless, dick move, and it's probably something Dean's done before. In What Is And What Should Never Be, Dean is transported to a false world created by a djinn, and in that world Sam tells Dean he slept with his prom date, and Dean replies "Yeah, that does kind of sound like me". He's kind of an asshole at first glance, but as time goes on, it's more 'lovable dick' than 'actual piece of shit'.
Dean's issues are considerable, the stem of the poison rooted deep in the depths of his childhood. His trauma started early, when his mother was killed by the demon Azazel, and his home set ablaze when he was just four years old. At four years old, Dean was carrying his baby brother out of a burning house to save his life. As a direct result of losing his mother, Dean moves from one tragedy to another throughout his life. Due to John's inability to cope with Mary's death, the need for vengeance is utterly all consuming, and it dictates the entire future of his two children. Dean has dealt with the repercussions of this his whole life, and deals with a considerable amount of PTSD related problems as a result.
Instead of a normal, apple-pie childhood (even with an absent mother), Dean is instead treated to a life of hunting, of learning how to kill supernatural creatures, of ugly, toxic masculinity defining his life-views from a very early age. The Winchesters are manly men, they don't need anyone but each other, family is the most important thing there is. Dean was forced to grow up far too fast - most of his early years were spent looking after Sam and raising him far more than his father ever did. He made them 'dinner' (often in the form of spaghetti o's or cereal, but food is food), made sure Sam did his homework, got him to school, taught him about girls. Truthfully, Dean was more of a father to Sam than John ever was.
Dean has spent the vast majority of his life looking out for Sam and protecting him; as such, he has made sure to repress any and all of his own emotions in order to remain a functional parent figure. He doesn’t often talk about his feelings, referring to vulnerability as ‘chick-flick’ moments, and tends to brush off Sam’s concerns about Dean’s trauma as ‘no big deal’. Even when he returns from Hell, Dean lies about his experiences, says that he doesn’t remember anything despite his brother's continued concern.
As someone who grew up with John Winchester for a daddy, Dean doesn’t exactly have healthy coping mechanisms, nor does he have a good relationship with himself. He feels like he can’t express himself emotionally, and, as stated above, he tends to downplay or cover up his traumas, hiding behind humor and using his sarcasm as a shield.
One can also deduce by Dean’s deflection and disdain for said ‘chick-flick’ moments, that his Daddy wasn’t exactly emotionally available either, and likely downplayed his own trauma in front of his boys, likely claiming that it wasn’t manly. Dean got this from somewhere, the only logical explanation is his father.
We know Dean was a troubled youth/teen - he has lied, cheated, and stolen his way through his youth in order to make sure Sam was fed, clothed, and had ‘good’ birthdays and holidays. He does this without complaint, because Sam is and always has been his top priority. Family means everything to Dean - it is the end all, be all, and is the reason Sam had a different childhood experience compared to Dean. Sam was a rebel, Dean the dutiful soldier, “Daddy’s blunt little instrument.” Sam was, oddly, the one John doted on, loved, while Dean was clay to be molded into a miniature John, shaped into the perfect fighter - obedient, a ‘mindless attack dog’. Dean, as a youth and teen, idolized John and did everything he asked. He followed his fathers orders blindly, and became his father’s right-hand man.
Despite the hero worship, however, deep down Dean does harbor some resentment towards John in regards to the way he was raised. We see this evidenced in Dream a Little Dream of Me - Dean’s dream self is taunting him, reminding him of all of his self-loathing, that he has nothing outside of Sam, and that everything about Dean is just his father, from his car to his clothing to his taste in music.
Dean retaliates by shouting My father was an obsessed bastard! All that crap he dumped on me about protecting Sam, that was his crap, he’s the one who couldn’t protect his family, he’s the one who let mom die, who wasn’t there for Sam, I always was, it wasn’t fair!
He’s angry with his father, and while the man went to Hell for his son, it doesn’t excuse the years of what could essentially be considered emotional abuse and neglect that he inflicted on his two sons. He consistently left them alone, telling Dean he was in charge, and to watch out for Sammy. It was too much pressure to put on a young boy, but John was obsessed with finding the demon that killed Mary, so much so that he forgot to be a father. He frequently dumped his kids either on others, or simply left them in skeevy motel rooms with a handful of money and left them to fend for themselves. Dean was the one in charge of buying groceries and making sure Sam was fed, and often got frustrated with all of the responsibilities John put on his shoulders, but always made sure to take care of his brother.
At this point in his life, Sam is the most important person to him, and he will do anything for his brother - he will go to hell for him, protect him, kill for him. The boys are extremely close - it’s been noted, several times in the show, that they know each other better than they know themselves.
Their relationship has been a recurring, underlying theme since Season 1 - these two have immense ‘brotherly love’ when in actuality, it can be viewed, from an outsider's point of view, as a relatively unhealthy, enabling, co-dependent relationship. Zachariah himself says "You know you can't trust them right? You know Sam and Dean Winchester are psychotically, irrationally, erotically codependent on each other, right?" Dean needs Sam. Yes, they are codependent, yes, it’s incredibly unhealthy, yes it is soul crushing to everyone around them, because they repeatedly make choices for the sole purpose of ensuring the other brother lives, regardless of who dies around them. But this is a world where Sam and Dean are literal vessels for archangels, where they inadvertently start the apocalypse because of their dedication to one another (Dean would have never broken the first seal in hell if he hadn’t sold his soul to save Sam and so on and so forth), where they are worse apart than together.
It’s arguable that Dean even wants to be a hunter, frankly. In Yellow Fever, while infected with ghost sickness, Dean essentially has the equivalent of a panic attack, telling his brother they’re crazy for hunting ghosts, that they’re insane for living their lives the way they do. It’s likely intended as comedic effect, but it’s also a stark reminder that Dean does not like the life they lead, nor is he truly passionate about hunting.
“What are we doing?”
“We’re hunting a ghost.”
“A ghost, exactly - who does that?!”
“...Us.”
“And that, Sam, is exactly why our lives suck!”
Dean isn’t wrong. Their lives do suck, and they have sucked for a long time. This is the life that was chosen for them, not the one they would have picked for themselves. We know Dean wants an apple pie life because of the events in Dream a Little Dream of Me (among others), but specifically this one, in particular. He vehemently denies his wants a vast majority of the time, but this is one of the happiest times we ever see Dean. The smallest things bring him great joy - a sandwich his mother makes, seeing his brother with Jessica, mowing a lawn, a pretty girlfriend, a normal job.
"...You want to mow the lawn?" Mary asks in confusion.
"Are you kidding me? I'd love to mow the lawn," Dean answers.
"Knock yourself out. You'd think you never mowed a lawn in your life."
Dean's reaction here makes it pretty clear that he hasn't ever done this mundane, normally boring, task. He's...not very good at it, but he is so incredibly proud of himself when he's finished. He sips his beer and surveys his work, and the pure happiness on his face is clear and present. It’s all circular, though, and as he visits his father’s grave, he knows exactly what his old man (his real old man) would say - ‘Go hunt the djinn. Your happiness over all those people's lives? No contest.’
It’s even more obvious that Dean desperately wants something normal and sweet, since he considers staying, even knowing that he'll die - he'll have everything he wants in his head. Dean has never REALLY cared about himself and his life - staying alive is only worth it because he can protect sam. Even as early as S1 Dean tells Sam he's 'tired' - and he doesn't just mean physically. He means emotionally, psychologically, spiritually. Dean is exhausted, and he is ready to rest.
That said, weirdness and djinn influenced reality aside, Dean is pretty adaptable. Throughout canon, he’s thrown into some pretty crazy situations and timelines and AUs, and while at first he tends to be a little freaked out, he quickly adapts and starts asking questions, trying to figure out where he is and what’s going on. If you think about it, he and Sam are basically detectives - they find a case, use their knowledge of lore and problem solving skills, gank a monster, and move on to the next one.
For all that their lives suck, though, Dean somehow manages to not be a complete wreck. He loves pop culture, and despite calling his brother a nerd, he spends whatever free time he may have consuming media. He loves movies and TV shows, and makes references to many, many fandoms over the years, including (but not limited to!): Game of Thrones, Ghostbusters, X-Files, Star Trek, and Lord of the Rings. He also enjoys reading, though the things Dean reads aren’t what anyone would consider ‘light’ - he mentions Slaughterhouse Five and Cat’s Cradle, and the Odyssey, just to name a few.
Dean’s love of pop culture isn’t just shallow interest, though. He states that he likes to watch movies where he knows the bad guy loses, and that growing up, it was always nice to check out once in a while. In this regard, Dean really isn’t that different from all of us. He uses music and movies and TV to escape, throwing himself into these things because it is peace amidst the chaos of his life. He obsesses over his favorites, gets excited, shows his boyish enthusiasm for movies like Hell Hazers and All Saint’s Day. He does nearly nothing for himself in the way of self care (beyond his clear and ever present alcohol addiction, which is in no way a healthy coping mechanism), but he does lose himself in things like his music, a story, or hell - even a cheeseburger or a piece of pie.
Movies/TV/Books (etc), for someone going through repeated episodes of trauma, are a coping mechanism, and allows the viewer to see themselves in the hero more often than not. We relate to fictional characters, find ourselves wishing we were them in some capacity. We throw ourselves into something that we know isn’t real, but the escapism allows us, for a few brief moments, to pretend that it is. Given Dean’s upbringing and extended stays in numerous motels that likely had a TV, it’s not surprising at all that he found solace in old westerns or B-rated horror films. Dean, for all of his tough guy attitude, is far softer than anyone could ever realize. He was often left alone with a much younger sibling who couldn’t relate to him, so he found solace on the silver screen.
Dean is also incredibly intelligent - his brother is often viewed as the scholar and Dean as simply muscle, but really, Dean is pretty ingenious himself. He made his own EMF out of a beat up walkman, it was Dean’s idea to pack the shotgun shells with rock salt, and he has an impressive amount of knowledge in his skull - not just from his love of pop culture. Dean worked with his father for quite some time before he and Sam partnered up, and he is perfectly capable of doing research and reading a book on his own.
For all of Dean’s obvious mental issues, his PTSD, his trauma, his self-hatred, low self-worth and self-esteem, and his tough-guy attitude, Dean is exceptionally kind, and far more emotional than he lets on. He’s good with kids and can relate to them, especially if they’ve been through something traumatic. Dean’s a pretty vulnerable person, somewhat delicate and surprisingly easy to hurt. He is self sacrificing, willing to die for not only his family, but for the innocent people at risk from monsters and spirits.
He doesn’t value his life very much and continually puts himself at risk and when chided for his recklessness, plays it off as either a joke or becomes somber and just says “I’m tired, man.” Dean is devastatingly loyal to those he loves - friends and family alike - and he tends to care far too much. He wants to save the world, save everyone, but he realizes that’s an impossible task and even so, he carries the guilt of those he couldn’t save with him throughout his life.
Dean likes to pop off that he's a hero (please see After School Special where he's been exposed cheating on his girlfriend because she freaked him out with wanting him to meet her parents, consequently didn't get mad when she caught him, and instead told him that instead of something more under his bad boy attitude, there was nothing there and that he was a sad, lonely little kid, to which he responds, I save lives, I'm a hero!), but really, for the most part,
he's self-sacrificing, selfless, and cares/feels so deeply it's nearly a negative trait.
Dean is devastatingly loyal to those he loves, most especially friends and family. He wants to save the world, save everyone, though he realizes that’s a nearly impossible task. Even so, he still tries and winds up carrying the guilt of those he couldn’t save with him throughout his life.
For all of Dean’s obvious mental issues, his PTSD, his trauma, his self-hatred, low self-worth and self-esteem, and his tough-guy attitude, Dean is exceptionally kind, and far more emotional than he lets on. He’s good with kids and can relate to them, especially if they’ve been through something traumatic. Dean can be a pretty vulnerable person at times, somewhat delicate and surprisingly easy to hurt. Again, he is extremely self sacrificing, willing to die for not only his family, but for the innocent people at risk from monsters and spirits. He isn't without fault, but his heart is almost always in the right place.
He's the kind of 'hero' who once thought he wanted to be recognized for it (or...thought he wanted to be, anyway), but in reality, has been content with working behind the scenes to save peoples lives (and occasionally screwing the damsel in the process, I don't make the rules, Supernatural is what it is, warts and all).
Powers / Abilities:
* Well skilled in the use of a myriad of advanced weaponry
* In depth knowledge of the supernatural and how to kill monsters/creatures/etc
* Skilled in hand to hand combat
* Torture (skill learned in hell)
* military style tactics
* mission leading and execution (again, military/marine style)
* excellent research skill
* crafty - made his own EMF, it was his idea for filling shotgun shells with salt, etc
* interpersonal skills to achieve a goal
* clever as hell, though he doesn't see himself as such
* Can speak/read a bit of highly specific latin - in regards to spells, conjuring, summoning, etc
* Knowledgeable in regards to spells, rituals, the supernatural(hah),
* ability and knowledge to make hex bags and protection charms
* knowledgeable in sigil work; latin, enochian, Anasazi Symbols, demon traps, angel proofing/trapping, blood magic, etc.
